Introduction
My name is Kayla, I am a nineteen year old girl who is currently attending Brigham Young University in Idaho. I am studying Therapeutic Recreation with clusters in Art and Dance. When I grow up I want to be a Child Life Therapist in a children's hospital, running the playroom and organizing the big events for the children. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and have been since birth, it is my life and my goal to be like my eldest brother, Jesus Christ.
My life may seem like its in order and that everything is hunky-dory but it was not always that way. Depression is a thing that runs deep in my family and it is something that I started having to deal with at a very young age, as a young teen I tried pushing it aside and ignoring it. It took to much energy to push aside thoughts of hatred for myself and try to always convince myself that I had worth, so I let this way of life completely engulf me. My parents recognized this and I started seeing a psychologist and a counselor. Summer of 2011 my body was exhausted, I had started to really believe the thoughts in my head and loosing my will to live. Thankfully my parents recognized this, but I was at my absolute lowest and nothing they said helped. I had become suicidal. Shortly after I checked myself into the hospital to receive treatment and help, this was maybe the hardest decision of my life. I was removed from everything I knew surrounded by white walls and doctors with clipboards, I had to confront my emotions and thoughts and make plans to change that I had to actually keep, because if I didn't I wouldn't leave. I spent a week working with doctors coming to realize that maybe my life had some importance and that I had worth in the eyes of many. Most importantly- my Father in Heaven; but I also had my family, ward family and friends. When I went home that was when the real test had begun. Life was not easy, I would wake each morning look in the mirror and my first thoughts were "You are so ugly... Gosh you have a terrible nose.... Who would ever want to be friends with that?....... You are worthless....." and many other terrible things that just are not true, but somewhere inside my head I believed it. I had a quote on my mirror that said, "You are perfect because you were created by a perfect being who does not make mistakes." I would have to read this two or three times, and then just carry on throughout my day. I lived one day at a time.
I am happy to say that I have gone a little over a year since this incident and even though I still struggle with this I know something now that I didn't before. While I have been on this journey towards my eternal happiness I have come to realize the great importance of women and their roles in not only the world but specifically the family. I have a deep testimony that one woman can change the world, and that woman might just be you. I have created this blog as an outreach to woman who struggle and need to be reminded of their worth, as well as for the woman who are preparing to be a wife and/or a mother. I hope that in someway I can remind you that you are magnificent. Shania Twain wrote a song back in 2002 entitled "She Not Just a Pretty Face", the chorus goes
She's--not--just a pretty face
She's--got--everything it takes
She's--mother--of the human race
She's--not--just a pretty face
I want all women to know that you are not just a pretty face. You are a beautiful creation of God with the potential to become one of our Father's greatest blessings on this earth and that we all make a difference that no man could. Just remember- you are magnificent.
My life may seem like its in order and that everything is hunky-dory but it was not always that way. Depression is a thing that runs deep in my family and it is something that I started having to deal with at a very young age, as a young teen I tried pushing it aside and ignoring it. It took to much energy to push aside thoughts of hatred for myself and try to always convince myself that I had worth, so I let this way of life completely engulf me. My parents recognized this and I started seeing a psychologist and a counselor. Summer of 2011 my body was exhausted, I had started to really believe the thoughts in my head and loosing my will to live. Thankfully my parents recognized this, but I was at my absolute lowest and nothing they said helped. I had become suicidal. Shortly after I checked myself into the hospital to receive treatment and help, this was maybe the hardest decision of my life. I was removed from everything I knew surrounded by white walls and doctors with clipboards, I had to confront my emotions and thoughts and make plans to change that I had to actually keep, because if I didn't I wouldn't leave. I spent a week working with doctors coming to realize that maybe my life had some importance and that I had worth in the eyes of many. Most importantly- my Father in Heaven; but I also had my family, ward family and friends. When I went home that was when the real test had begun. Life was not easy, I would wake each morning look in the mirror and my first thoughts were "You are so ugly... Gosh you have a terrible nose.... Who would ever want to be friends with that?....... You are worthless....." and many other terrible things that just are not true, but somewhere inside my head I believed it. I had a quote on my mirror that said, "You are perfect because you were created by a perfect being who does not make mistakes." I would have to read this two or three times, and then just carry on throughout my day. I lived one day at a time.
I am happy to say that I have gone a little over a year since this incident and even though I still struggle with this I know something now that I didn't before. While I have been on this journey towards my eternal happiness I have come to realize the great importance of women and their roles in not only the world but specifically the family. I have a deep testimony that one woman can change the world, and that woman might just be you. I have created this blog as an outreach to woman who struggle and need to be reminded of their worth, as well as for the woman who are preparing to be a wife and/or a mother. I hope that in someway I can remind you that you are magnificent. Shania Twain wrote a song back in 2002 entitled "She Not Just a Pretty Face", the chorus goes
She's--not--just a pretty face
She's--got--everything it takes
She's--mother--of the human race
She's--not--just a pretty face
I want all women to know that you are not just a pretty face. You are a beautiful creation of God with the potential to become one of our Father's greatest blessings on this earth and that we all make a difference that no man could. Just remember- you are magnificent.
I love my life, I love God, and I love myself-
I only hope that one day all women will be
able to say that about themselves.
President Dieter F. Uchtdorf gave a talk in November of 2008 entitled Happiness, Your Heritage. The talk is broken up into seven parts, one of which is given to women about their great power to create. It's a great talk and I wish all women would read it because it truly is an amazing talk. But here is a small snip it of his talk that I would like to share with you: